Hurray! Motivated And Free Is One Today

Am so happy with my achievement so far. I never regretted nor felt bad to start what I believed was good for me, and how the Grace and love of God saved me from the wilderness.

I used to be an entertainment blogger with prospects. I was kinda popular and I had business coming in bit by bit. But when I lost my job, I couldn’t cope with my bills, my world started crumbling. The business I had coming suddenly stopped. I started praying and fasting asking God for directions and new doors to start opening for me.

After wandering and spending most of my life in the wilderness filled with depression, lost, unmotivated, anxiety, and hate, the Lord saved and delivered me. I made a promise to God to share the message of not giving. To help others using this blog as a tool to speak and reach out to those who are depressed, not motivated or inspired. I was scared to start at the beginning, but eventually I did. I never believed this blog will ever come into existence nor go this far. It never came to my mind I was going to be helping one or two people all over the world. I never knew I was going to have good mentors and fellow motivational and inspiring bloggers on this platform. Truly nothing is ever late to those who wait patiently on the Lord.

My blog is a year older today. Am happy am not where I used to be, am grateful for where I am right now as I move higher by the Grace of God.

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Dear God, Thank You For Everything

Thank you for always guiding me in the right direction and for knowing what is best for me more than I do.

Thank you for the many times you have forgiven me whenever I deviated from your path.

Thank you for always reminding me that sometimes you are the only one I can trust, you are the only I can talk to and you are the only one who is truly listening.

Thank you for all these blessings that I take for granted on a daily basis.

Thank you for not hating me when I was ungrateful or rude or when my faith was shaken.

Thank you for the times you have inspired me to seek knowledge and know more about the world and about myself.

Thank you for giving me the spirituality I need to contemplate the wonders of the world and the wonders of your creation and the magic of your words and your daily miracles.

Thank you for the thousands of chances you have given me.

Thank you for all the lessons, especially the hard ones.

Thank you for the love you have shown me through family and friends.

Thank you for the hardships — indeed, every hardship was followed by ease.

Thank you for always being in my heart and embracing me in my lonely nights.

Thank you for sending me all these warning signs through your messengers who were disguised as people or books or just gut feelings.

Thank you for giving me the strength I needed to endure pain and be comfortable with my loneliness.

Thank you for giving me a reason to wake up every day.

Thank you for giving me people to look up to.

Thank you for sending me people to love.

Thank you for inspiring me to keep trying to be a better person.

Thank you for giving me that faith I need when there seems to be no hope.

Thank you for being patient with me when I can’t even be patient with myself.

Thank you for whispering into my soul when I almost felt dead inside.

Thank you for showing me that this life is fleeting and unpredictable and that I shouldn’t take it for granted.

Thank you for showing me that you are the truth.

Thank you for health, for shelter, and for food.

Thank you for healing me when I was broken.

Thank you for being there when no one else was.

Thank you for everything.

Thank you for it all.

I wish I can carry out the message you have for me on this earth right –carry it with love and carry with peace.

I wish I can pass the message on and make a difference.

I am writing this for anyone who is feeling lost, desperate, sad, angry or heart broken. Someone who is going through a lot of hardships or feels betrayed by the world, I would like them to know that you are the answer and the only guidance.

That they don’t have to look outside or find someone else to heal them, all they have to do is look up and talk to you or just look for you inside their hearts.

This is the only way to deal with hardships and deal with life.

Thank you for always being there and for reassuring me that no matter what, I will never be alone.

Happy New Month Guys

We in the second half of the year and am so grateful and thankful to God for healing, safety, family, friends, favour and His blessings. It is not by my power or might, but by the spirit am alive.

Recently, a lot of people died in Nigeria from terrorism and accident. Yesterday I recieved a sad news about a friend of mine who passed away from heart disease. A very lively, lovely, and godly daughter of Zion. 😭

Who am I?

Not that am perfect, no that am clean, a sinner that is living with in grace and mercy.

In all, I say thank you Jesus!!!

Happy New Month guys. A month of pleasant surprises.

The More Difficult Life Is, The More We Appreciate God’s Forgiveness and Grace: Williams Story

I have been thinking about all that GOD has done for me. I have no words to adequately express the love and the appreciation I owe to GOD. To whom much is forgiven, much is required. GOD help me to honor You in all that I do.

No matter what we’ve been through in life, no matter what had happened in the past, no matter what we’ve done and think it’s in for given, we should always look up to God, because God is love. Here is Williams story….

Why I am a Christian

I was a child of rape,
Fatherless,
Unloved by a mother, not wanted, neglected, beaten, burned and abandoned,
Fostered and then adopted by those who did not cherish nor protect,
Molested, raped and shamed,
Told was a mistake, no good, would never amount to anything,
Cursed, kicked, slapped, whipped, beaten,
Learned by example that alcohol and drugs would numb the pain,
Runaway,
Bullied, beat up, drug overdose and left for dead,
Hospitalized, juvenile incarceration, defamation,
Hopeless, angry and alone,
Crimes led to prison,
Attempted rapes, countless fights, stabbed repeatedly, and in isolation hatred consumed,
Unwelcome, homeless and hungry,
Never begged, but ate out of dumpsters and occasionally worked for food or cash,
An object of another’s deviant sexual behavior, who were beaten and money taken,
Alcohol warmed on cold nights,
Lonely women in bars were nothing more than a bed to sleep in,
Uncaring, indifferent, selfish, self-loathsome,
Attempted suicide, and angry that even death evaded me,
Immersed in the bar-tend culture,
A stripper, an escort, drug dealer, a player,
Woke up high, went to bed drunk, every day for the next twenty years,
Mean, calloused, vile and vulgar defines the man I had become.

Then the unexpected happened!

GOD graciously revealed the truth of Christ’s redeeming work on the cross of Calvary to save a wretch like me. So real was GOD’s presence as tears of joy washed away a lifetime of anger and pain. Gone was the guilt of my sin against GOD. Knowing that by accepting Jesus as my Savior and LORD, GOD had declared me righteous.

Nothing in my past had power over me anymore. It was then that I realized why GOD chose me. I know hurt. I know pain. I know intimately the hopelessness felt by all people today. But most importantly, I know that GOD can save. What I did, I no longer do. I’m not without sin, but, the sins I used to love I now hate. When I am wrong I am quick to ask for forgiveness. And shockingly, GOD has birthed in me a sincere concern for the needs people have, and the urgency for their eternal salvation. I am becoming a very different person, and this is my testimony to the truth of the Gospel of Jesus Christ.

It is never too late for God. If you know God has done so much for you in anyway and you feel to share your story. You can be anonymous or can reveal your identity, whichever way we will respect your decision.

If you want to share your story, send via mail:

motivatedfree@gmail.com.

Remember Where You Are Today Is Not The Final Place

Satan visited me and asked me: Asking “How far?..

I told him: “I thank God for everything…”
He laughed me to scorn..
He said what on earth shld I thank God for?… He showed me my mates who are living inside mansions, and I said hahaaa and I showed him my mates who are also inside d grave… He showed me some of my mates who are inside d costliest cars in town…

I also showed him some of my mates who are inside d costliest caskets in town…
He showed me d fat bank account of some of my friends… And I showed him d hospital bills of some others who are terribly sick…

He took me to boutiques, to show me those who are dressed with d most expensive designer clothings …

I took him to d prisons and cells scattered all
over d country..and I showed him guys who were accused innocently who have been there for many years…Even their loved ones has forgotten dem there…

Satan felt broken and wanted to leave me alone… But i told him to follow me to just one place… I took him to d mortuary and I now showed him many of my mates who are lying down there naked and dead …
He could not say anything again…
He left me and ran away…

Friends, don’t let anything get u depressed…u are not a mistake,u are not an accident no matter what has happened to u or how bad u think u are faring in life…
There is always something God is doing in ur life that ur enemy are envying….

U can’t withdraw ur own money from ur bank without ur ATM card or bank slip…
The Bible said that with joy we shall DRAW from d wells of salvation…

There are many things to draw from God…and thank him still for in ur life…JOY is ur ATM card, Without JOY,u will draw nothing…

That is why Nehemiah, in d midst of battles, he was able to say: “The joy of d Lord is my
strength…”

Beloved God might not have done everything…

But he has done many things…
If only u know how much evil and shame that the Lord has spared you from in the past 3 months you will appreciate God for what you are today…

To him that is joined to the living, there is
hope….For a living dog is better than a dead lion.

Be thoughtful, be thankful…
David understood this and he said…
“If it has not been the Lord who was on our side, they would have swallowed me up quick when their anger was kindled against us… But our souls as a bird has escaped the snare of d fowler…”

Today, if u are really grateful just share this chat and let others know that its true that God has shamed the devil in his/her life.

Remember what u are today is not the
final…..God is preparing something bigger
always……Rejoice!!!..

10 Easter Quotes: He Is Risen

The resurrection gives my life meaning and direction and the opportunity to start over no matter what my circumstances.

Easter is the demonstration of God that life is essentially spiritual and timeless.?

Our Lord has written the promise of the resurrection, not in books alone, but in every leaf in spring-time.

The story of Easter is the story of God’s wonderful window of divine surprise.

We live and die; Christ died and lived!

Easter is a time to rejoice, be thankful, be assured that all is forgiven so life extends beyond the soil of earth.

Earth’s saddest day and gladdest day were just three days apart.

The joyful news that He is risen does not change the contemporary world. Still before us lie work, discipline, sacrifice. But the fact of Easter gives us the spiritual power to do the work, accept the discipline, and make the sacrifice.

The great gift of Easter is hope – Christian hope which makes us have that confidence in God, in his ultimate triumph, and in his goodness and love, which nothing can shake.

A man who was completely innocent, offered himself as a sacrifice for the good of others, including his enemies, and became the ransom of the world. It was a perfect act.

Reflection Time

There was a bird who lived in a desert, very sick, no feathers, nothing to eat and drink, no shelter to live in.

One day a dove was passing by, so the sick unhappy bird stopped the dove and inquired, “where are you going?” The dove replied ” I am going to heaven”.

So the sick bird said “Please find out for me, when my suffering will come to an end?”
The dove said, “Sure, I will.” and bid a good bye to the sick bird.

The dove reached heaven and shared the message of the sick bird with the angel incharge at the entrance gate.

The angel said, “For the next seven years of its life the bird has to suffer like this, no happiness till then.”

The dove said, “When the sick bird hears this he will get disheartened. could you suggest any solution for this.”

The Angel replied, “Tell him to recite this verse ” *Thank you God for everything* .”

The dove on meeting the sick bird again, delivered the message of the angel to it.

After seven days the dove was passing again passing by and saw that bird was very happy, feathers grew on his body, a small plant grew up in the desert area, a small pond of water was also there, the bird was singing and dancing cheerfully.
The dove was astonished.
The Angel had said that there would be no happiness for the bird for the next seven years. With this question in mind the dove went to visit the angel at heaven’s gate.

The dove put forth his query to the Angel.
The Angel replied, “Yes, it is true there was no happiness for the bird for seven years but because the bird was reciting the verse ” *THANK YOU GOD FOR EVERYTHING* ” in every situation, his life changed.

When the bird fell down on the hot sand it said “THANK YOU GOD FOR EVERYTHING”

When it could not fly it said, “THANK YOU GOD FOR EVERYTHING”

When it was thirsty and there was no water around, it said, “THANK YOU GOD FOR EVERYTHING”

Whatever the situation, the bird kept on repeating, “THANK YOU GOD FOR EVERYTHING! & *consequently* the 7 years *got dissolved* in 7 days!”

When I heard this story, *I felt a tremendous shift in my way of feeling, thinking, accepting and viewing life.*

I adopted this verse in my life.
WHATEVER the situation I faced I started reciting this verse ” *THANK YOU GOD FOR EVERYTHING!*”.

It helped me to shift my view *from what I did not have to _what I have in my life_*.

For instance… if my head pains, I THANK GOD that the rest of my body is completely fine and healthy and I notice that the headache does not bother me at all.

In the same manner, I started using this verse in my relationships (whether family, friends, neighbours, colleagues ) finances, social life, business and everything with which I can relate.

I shared this story with everyone I came in touch with and it brought a great shift in their behaviour too.

This simple verse really had a deep impact on my life, I started feeling how blessed I am, how happy I am, *how good life is!*

The purpose of sharing this message is to make all of us aware of how powerful the attitude of gratitude is!! It can reshape our lives.

Lets recite this verse continuously to experience the shift in our life.

So be grateful, and see the change in your attitude.

Be humble, and you will never stumble.🙏🙏🙏🙏

Story: Always Be Humble And Thank God

A rich man looked through his window and saw a poor man picking something from his dustbin … He said, Thank GOD I’m not poor.

The poor man looked around and saw a naked man misbehaving on the street … He said, Thank GOD I’m not mad. The mad man looked ahead and saw an ambulance carrying a patient … He said, Thank GOD am not sick. Then a sick person in hospital saw a trolley taking a dead body to the mortuary … He said, Thank GOD I’m not dead. Only a dead person cannot thank God. Why don’t you thank GOD today for all your blessings and for the gift of life … for another beautiful day.

What is LIFE?

To understand life better, you have to go to 3 locations :

1. Hospital

2. Prison

3. Cemetery

At the Hospital, you will understand that nothing is more beautiful than HEALTH. In the Prison, you’ll see that FREEDOM is the most precious thing. At the Cemetery, you will realize that life is worth nothing. The ground that we walk today will be our roof tomorrow.

Sad Truth : We all come with Nothing and we will go with Nothing… Let us, therefore, remain humble and be thankful & grateful to God at all times for everything. Could you please share this with someone else, and let them know that God loves them?

Happy New Month Guys

Am happy am celebrating this month with you guys. When you look back and see His goodness, mercy, and grace. I can’t keep shut but thank Him. Am alive, healthy and kicking. We entered the New Year with some friends and family, but most of them did not make it. God I thank you as I pray:

I prophecy into your life that the Lord God will arise from His throne and bless you. He will bless you with what you have been praying for. He will reward you a million fold with what you work for. He will grant unto you all your aspirations and surprise you with what you have not asked for. He will visit your home with good tidings and put a new song into your mouth. Any wicked person that has vowed to waste your efforts, your time, your resources, and glory, shall be wasted in Jesus name. As you set your feet on today’s activities, Heavens shall step out with you. All your missions shall be accomplished to the glory of God. 🙏🏿🙏🏿🙏🏿
The Heavens will favour you.

The Earth will yield it’s increase for you. Everything God created in time, space and eternity will cooperate with you and work in your favour henceforth.
As you lift up your eyes to God in expectation this morning, your nakedness shall be covered, your shame shall be wiped off, your reproach and failure are ended and your testimonies shall abide and abound in Jesus name.

As it is impossible for the Sun not to rise each day, this year and beyond, Jehovah EL-SHADDAI shall surprise you, fast track your progress and your joy shall be full, in the Mighty Name of Jesus. Amen.
🙏🏿🙏🏿🙏🏿🙏🏿

The Lord will set you free today in the name of Jesus. Every negative thought, plan, device, suggestion, or idea, that is not for your well-being is wiped away today in the name of JESUS. Colossians 2:14 “having wiped out the handwriting of requirements that was against us, which was contrary to us. And He has taken it out of the way, having nailed it to the cross”. Halleluyah!.👍 👍

🗣God will water your ground. Your trees would bear their fruits bountifully. There shall not be scarcity of good things in your life. Till drought ended in the land of Israel, Elijah did not suffer or starve once, because God used ravens and a widow to feed him. I pray that the Lord God Almighty will feed and satisfy you and your family with good things. The blood of Jesus will speak for deliverance and breakthrough for you and your family in the Name of our Lord Jesus Christ, Amen!!

This is your day of mercy and favour, you are blessed.

Delivered from the Hurt of Abuse and the Scars of Sin

Before I begin my testimony I feel it is important to give you some information on my childhood, so you will be better able to understand some of the decisions I made in my life, however good or bad they may have been. But every decision I have made during my lifetime good or bad is what has brought me to where I am now and I am very thankful for the mountains and the valleys.

When I was born my mother was only fifteen years old and now years later and after I went through the process of forgiving her and working through many things, I am now able to look at her life through her eyes to try to better understand how she must have felt. Someone gave me this advice when I was really struggling with all of this, I was told that maybe I could forgive easier if I try to see her life through her eyes and not the eyes of a hurt child, “you know what?” it worked, I can understand her more clearly now. She was not mature enough to take care of herself much less a baby. So she would send me here and there to whomever would willing to take me at that particular time, most of the time it was my grandmother, several times throughout my life she would decide that she wanted me back and she would come and uproot me again. I never really knew any stability in my life [although my grandmother tried] and I always felt as if no one really loved me or wanted me.

Then at the age of nine she came and got me and took me away from my grandmother which, really at this point of my life, was the only mother I had ever known and I was very attached to her. Anyway, my mother came and took me to Illinois where she lived, by this time she had remarried and she had two more children by her new husband. He hated me and the only reason I could figure out was simply that I was not his child. Now this was not my fault, although I did blame myself for many years. He started just physically abusing me, but at the age of nine that changed, he raped me and this abuse went on until I was thirteen and I finally told my mother [even though he threatened me that if I ever told anyone he would kill me and my grandmother], she didn’t believe me either, actually no one believed me. Finally I just let it drop and I buried all of those feelings of anger and hate for years, that has now all been dealt with and forgiven and now it is all under the precious blood of Jesus, I have even forgiven him for what he did to me in the Lord’s strength not my own. Praise God! I told my mother that I wanted to go back to Memphis to live with my grandmother and she consented just because she felt I was causing so much trouble and she did not want to be bothered.

Now my grandmother was now also remarried and I resented him for taking her away from me too. You must remember I was only a child and I felt like she was all I had and now I had lost her too. I was very hateful to him and caused so many problems, he was very kind and loving to me but I just could not accept what he was offering to me. My grandmother finally after a long struggle went to the courts and told the judge that I was out of control and they just could not handle me any longer, so they removed me and placed me in a foster home, the home I went to was wonderful, but at that time I could not see things clearly, all I could see was that the only person who should love me had now turned her back on me as well, I just wanted my grandmother so, I ran away. The courts then really called my bluff, so as a ward of the State of Tennessee I was placed in a Catholic all girls reform school for three and a half years, even our pet Saint Bernard was female LOL. Now as I look back, I can honestly say it was one of the best things that ever happened to me. But at that time all I could see was that I was totally alone, unloved and unwanted in this great big world.

Now I will jump ahead some. In 1987 I lost my three children to their father [not in the courts he just merely took them and left the state without my knowledge or consent] and I totally lost it. I turned heavily to alcohol and eventually that turned into crack and cocaine. By this time I had lost everything including my dignity as I had turned to prostitution to support my drug habit. I was arrested several times on various charges, but I was never convicted and I never served any time, I know that God was taking care of me even back then in my sin, He saw what I would be one day in Him. I give GOD all the PRAISE, HONOR AND GLORY for all that I am today and all that I will be.

The drugs and my roaming had taken me too many places but on December 20, 1990 I came across a man that told me about Jesus and how He could deliver me and make my life an example to others. I had not eaten in a couple of days and he asked me if I was hungry, so he took me to a restaurant and bought me something to eat. The entire time he shared about Jesus Christ with me. He told me Christ could and would set me free if I was willing, and how He (Jesus), would give me a new life without all the pain and turmoil I was living in. Of course being a Christian does not eliminate us from pain, trials and tribulation but with Christ in our hearts He will give us the strength to overcome and withstand even in the worst times. I began sharing my life story with this man and he still said Jesus is the answer, and boy was he right. Right there I gave my heart to the Lord and I decided to live for Him and serve Him for the rest of my life.

I began singing at the age of five, but I had destroyed my voice through drug abuse, I just abused the gifts that God had given me. So I prayed and told the Lord that if He would heal and restore my voice I would use this gift for His glory for the rest of my life. Now, God has done exceedingly and abundantly above all that I could ask or think. The songs that I sing and others that I have written they are all His I am only an instrument holding the pen. It does not matter where you are, Christ will come to you and meet you if, you are willing to let your life go and let Him be God of and in your life.

I have had so many miracles in my Christian life as I am a walking miracle myself. But one of these miracles of a physical healing really stands out to me and I would like to share this with you as well. Around 2001 I was diagnosed with an incurable bowel condition, the doctors were not really sure what it was exactly, but they had come to the conclusion that with ulcers all through my body and many in my bowel system, they said they wanted to do surgery and remove a part of my bowel. My reply was that I wanted to get prayer for this and that I believed that God was going to heal me and I would not need the surgery at all. They went ahead and scheduled me for another scope the following week, just a few days after Christmas. Then on Christmas Eve I placed a long distance call to a minister friend of mine and asked him to pray for me, he said no problem but he would need to call me back in a few minutes. While waiting for him to call back I surrounded myself with God’s word and actually knelt on the Bible to show God that I believed His word and was claiming His promise of healing. When my friend called me back I knelt on the bible said, “Pray”. When he prayed for me the fire of God hit me and went through me, I had such a peace come over me. I went over to my bed and fell asleep (now Adam was put into a deep sleep in Genesis when God removed the rib to create woman) God did the same for me as I lay there sleeping He performed surgery on me to heal my body. I slept for seventeen hours and when I woke the bleeding had stopped and so had the pain, I knew without a doubt that I was healed by the precious hand of the Great Physician. I was on about $400.00 worth of medicine a month and I went into the kitchen and threw it all in the trash. I did go back for the scope when I was scheduled and the doctors were amazed there were no ulcers anywhere and I just praised God for His healing power.

I am now an ordained minister and I love and serve God with all that I have. I know God has called me into the ministry to help others overcome and learn and grow in Him. I am also now a southern gospel singersongwriter. The Lord has blessed me and I will continue on this road He has placed me on for my desire is only to serve Him. I will travel anywhere I am invited to give my testimony or to sing or both. God is wonderful and it is to His glory that I am writing this, if one soul is reached in anyway then this is worth everything.

As far as my family and children I thought I would just share this information on my children as our family continues to grow. And this is how my relationship is now with my children and grandchildren.

My oldest daughter, Chrystina’h is married to Adam; they have three beautiful children, one boy Attisyn is 8, Charysma’h is 4 and Kaelyn is 2. They live in Ontario, Canada and I am now living in Canada very close to them and I am enjoying it very much.

My son is my middle child, Jackson he is divorced and living in Mississippi he has four children Benjamin 7, Raygen who is 5, Larissa is 3, and Rayne who is 2.

My youngest child, Karina’h is married to Josh, she two daughters Alissa 8, Jasmine 8, Alexis 7, they have a son Brayson who was born in May 2007 and we are very excited that they have a new addition Jayden born May 2009. They also live in Mississippi.

Again I cannot stress enough that this is for the glory of God that I am here and that my life is what it is today, for without Christ I am nothing, but through Him I am a joint heir with Jesus Christ. He is our Deliverer, Savior, Helper, and Healer and any problem we may have is never too great or to small for Him, we just have to take it to Him and leave it at His feet and in His care. I thank God with all my heart because I know without a doubt that His power is still healing, still saving and still delivering. He is good all the time. I have made my mistakes but His grace is sufficient. God loves us and if we truly repent and confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us and cleanse us from all unrighteousness.

If I can help anyone out there, please contact me with the information provided below and I will do my best to help in anyway I can. If you have questions about loved ones who may be on drugs or other addictions I will try to answer your questions, if I do not know the answer I will do my best to find the answer for you. If you have loved ones that you need prayer for I will gladly join you in agreeing for that person for the Kingdom, just email me with the information so I can be in prayer daily for you and/or your family members and/or friends. Please always remember we are human and we will make mistakes but just confess to God those mistakes and get them under the blood of Jesus as soon as possible, God still loves us and He will help us in all of our situations. He will always come down to our level and help us to reach up to His level no matter what you call out His name for; He is there and WILL HELP YOU!

GOD BLESS AND KEEP YOU ALL. I GIVE FULL PERMISSION TO ANYONE WHO CAN USE THIS TESTIMONY TO COPY IT AND GIVE IT OUT OR TO SHARE IT PUBLICALLY, BUT PLEASE GIVE ALL THE GLORY AND PRAISE TO GOD. THANK YOU. I AM YOUR SISTER IN CHRIST JESUS.

Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.

2 Corinthians 12:9 and he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

In Everything, Give Thanks! 

When everything seem well,  giving thanks its quite easy but when things are upside down, how easy does thanksgiving come to you. 2017 is gone but there are a lot of things you wished came to pass last year before thr curtain closes.  It is not convenient,  yes but God’s admonition is to give thanks in everything. 

Your act of thanksgiving is an indication of your unreserved faith in God that you are still in control despite difficult circumstances. Stop focusing on things that seem not to be working so that thanks will not cease from your lips. This gives heaven the opportunity to do what they are good at doing- turning situations to favour you. 

NB: Don’t look at what is not going well in your life, instead appreciate what yiy have for heavens to bless you more than your expect. 

Testimony: No More Miscarriages

My husband and I got married about 10 years ago. During the first 6 years of our marriage, I had 6 miscarriages. The only thing I ever wanted to do was to be a wife and mother. This was so devastating to me. The doctors could not find out why I kept miscarrying. The longest I held the pregnancy was about 9 weeks. Its like I always expected the worst.

My relationship with God would have its ups and downs. I would pray, fast, and believe, and yet, I would lose another one. If I could only get through that first trimester. The day I went for an ultrasound and the doctor told me my baby had no heartbeat was so divesting to me. Most of the time, I miscarried before I had an ultrasound. I was all alone at that appointment. That was the longest drive home I have ever had. I cried all the way. I couldn’t understand why God would allow me to have the desire to be a mother and yet I couldn’t be. I prayed so hard to either take the desire from me, or to allow me to have a child.

In December 2007, I had my tonsils removed. My doctor had been trying to get me to have them out for a year or so. Finally, I did it. I was so nervous, I literally thought I would not make it through the operation. By the time Feb 2008 came around, I found out I was 12 weeks pregnant!! I couldn’t believe it! I had wanted this so bad, and yet I couldn’t believe that I didn’t know already. I was past the critical stage, and I was able to have a perfect ultrasound! My husband had told me that he wouldn’t let me go to another appointment alone.

I am so amazed that we were able to have a beautiful perfect little baby girl. I felt like I was on an emotional high for the entire first year. I didn’t want to be greedy, and I was fully content on having one child. But I prayed for us to have a boy, because I wanted my husband to have a son, and do all the father/son things. I specifically prayed for a boy. Amazingly, 10 days short of two years apart, I now have a son!! Both my pregnancies were problem free, even though I was treated as high-risk. Another thing was that I didn’t want to have a C-Section. I prayed that I would be able to have the babies naturally, and I was able to do that as well…The births were so easy and QUICK. To any of you out there who are experiencing infertility, I just want you to know there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I had my first child in my 7th year of marriage…she was my 7th pregnancy. Amazing!!

Overcoming Anxiety With Thanksgiving 

Feeling thankful during a flash of anxiety sounds counter- initiative, but it’s exactly what allows us to embrace the truth (God is in control) grow in faith (I’m giving this to You, Lord. Please help me) and remain joyful in miserable moments.

Philippians 4:6 states that be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God.

Back then when I get worried about something, it would get me down a drainage, sinking in my worries and anxious state. Still in progress in conquering the spirit of worry because it gets to.me some times, but have learnt how to overcome it, by praying and leaving all to God to handle.

God works in our lives and does miracles. I have prayer about situations and have seen God change the outcome- prayed for help in times of tension and have seen God clear the air. I pray for my family, friends and see them receive breakthrough.

God is faithful and He wants the best for us. When we trust that, we don’t need to fear evil. Jeremiah 29:11 states that I know the plans I have for you, declares the lord, plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

God offers the kind of healing that goes to the soul- it goes straight through us into the darkest of the dark.

For anyone who has ever dealt with stress, worry or anxiety, you know how tormenting it can be when it grabs hold. Without God in control, we are left feeling vulnerable and unprotected. Let Him be the one who grabs hold. I’m praying to die to myself day after day. Sometimes even moment after moment, so that God can prevail in my life.

We turn to Him and say “I need you Lord” He is there, holding us as we manage to put one foot in front of the other and make it through another day.

True peace, true courage and true love comes from God. The Lord Jesus Christ  died for us so that we would be set free from the evil of the world. Nothing can win against the one who conquered death. Keep in my mind.

  • Psalm 56:11 says, in God i trust; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?
  • For the spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, Love and self- discipline. (II Timothy 1:7)
  • And if you’re still worried about what tomorrow could bring: therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own (Mathew 6:34)

Testimony: Praise To The Glory Of God’s Grace

​This is the story of my salvation, of how God called me out of darkness into His glorious light, that I might proclaim His praises. Many miraculous things have happened to me since becoming a Christian, but this story focuses on the events surrounding my salvation.

As a little girl my mother would tuck my sister and I in at night and pray the Lord’s prayer with us every night. My family was not really religious and we probably attended church less than ten times as a family throughout my whole childhood while growing up. Though I remember desiring to go to Sunday school, but never went as we did not attend church either. My mother attended church briefly in my very early childhood and took me with her, and my gran told me about the power of the blood of Jesus. Most of my religious exposure came from school – schools in South Africa in those days had special times for bible classes as well as time for prayer in the mornings and assemblies.

Growing up I always believed in God as well as in Jesus and often prayed – mostly before an examination, but I also remember always saying sorry to God when I knew I had sinned. I always called on Jesus name when in danger. I was hit by a car when I was ten years old, I cried out to Jesus that I did not want to die. As a rebellious teenager I had frightening dreams and would always call on Jesus name to ease my fear.

My family was quite close-knit and ‘normal’. My dad worked a 9-5 job and for the most part my mother was a house wife and was always at home for us children. My parents were stable and are still married today, despite problems they faced as a married couple. I was the middle child of three children. I had an older brother six years my senior and a sister four years younger than me. I had no problems at school and achieved in academics and sports. I was a generally respectful and obedient child and gave my parents very little grief. My childhood was happy though not without hiccups. When I look back, I see God’s hand so clearly in all my affairs, such as a time when I was knocked over by a car and a nurse was on the scene with pain pills and a leg splint for my broken leg, or when my brother rescued me from the swimming pool after falling in as a young 4 year old. I also remember being at one church service when I was about six years old and some people were getting baptized – I remember thinking that I too would like to be baptized, though I did not understand the meaning of it.

Everything began to change when I reached high school. I read a book based on a true story about a young girl who wrote in her diary. She described her experiences with drugs in detail. Instantly I became intrigued and obsessed with the idea of taking drugs. I also read a book about how Satanism was seducing the youth. I started dabbling a little with witchcraft and eventually became a regular drug user. I used Marijuana, LSD, Ecstasy, Cocaine and anything else that was on the market. I sold my possessions and lied to my parents to buy drugs.  During this time my father was transferred to a small town on the west coast of South Africa called Langebaan, as he was a civil engineer and did the work of a contract manager. I was becoming very rebellious and demanded that I be sent to the boarding school in my home town, Port Elizabeth. My parents agreed and I was sent to a prestigious all girls school. I had in the previous year won the junior victrix ladorum for being the best all round junior athlete at our school sports day at the same school. In the boarding school I met another girl who was like minded – she also enjoyed drug taking and going to parties. We eventually conspired to run away together to Durban to live it up and do as we pleased. By the grace of God, we only made it as far as the next major city next to Port Elizabeth, East London, before concerned people phoned the police after seeing us hitch hiking on a busy road. We were taken to social workers who called for our parents to fetch us. My mother had spent the previous night driving across South Africa as she had received a call from the school that I was missing. I was relieved to see my mother, though sad and ashamed that I had hurt her.

This incident, however, did not stop me from my ways. A year later, my father was transferred to Pretoria and my whole family was to move up. My older brother had by this time been in quite a successful music band and wanted to stay in Port Elizabeth. I begged my parents if I could stay with him, as I wanted to attend the art college that was close by (and also wanted to be out of their sight so that I could continue using drugs and doing what I wanted). My parents again agreed to my demands. I was enrolled at the art college. During this time I was using cocaine and my parents found out about it as a family friend had noticed something amiss and had phoned them. My parents fetched both my brother and I and took us back to Pretoria. I managed to convince my parents that it was a lie, and that I wanted to go back to the art college. They did not agree. I decided to hitchhike to Port Elizabeth, though ended up in a dangerous area in Johannesburg, Hillbrow, notorious for Nigerian drug dealers. One of these dealers had seen me hiking and had picked me up – he took me to KFC and offered to pay for a flight to Port Elizabeth for me. As young and as naïve as I was I believed him. Fortuanately, God protected me even in that dangerous area and no evil happened to me. I had managed to phone a young boy that I had been seeing and who loved me (he is today my husband)

– he pleaded with the man to not hurt me. My brother had friends in Port Elizabeth who knew this Nigerian and told my brother there were plans to ship me out of the country and use me as a drug mule and sex slave. Thus my brother found my whereabouts and my parents arrived to fetch me. I shudder to think what could have happened to me as an ignorant and foolish teenager. This incident convinced my parents to allow me to return to my home town and live with my boyfriend’s family and continue attending the art college. Three months later my brother and sister were in a serious car accident. My brother died six hours later from internal injuries and blood loss.

During this time, I did go for two or three visits to my family in Pretoria by bus. On one visit I asked my mom to buy me a book for the bus ride back as the ride was over 14 hours long. I chose a book called, “He came to set the captives free.” Since then I have learned that it is quite a controversial book, however the Lord used it to open my eyes to my bondage to sin. On another visit I read a number of the “tribulation force” books about the rapture and coming of Jesus. I continued in the same lifestyle – drugs, partying, aimlessness, though something was changing inside me. I began to be convicted of my sins and a number of times felt as though I was dying while on drugs and cried out to God to forgive me, as I knew my life was not right with Him and did not want to die in my sin. I also prayed for a bible and soon enough a friend of mine gave me a mini new testament. I however continued to abuse drugs and live a sinful lifestyle, though my conscience was bothering me. When my parents visited they told me they and my sister had been baptized. I was interested, though still enjoyed taking drugs, particularly ecstasy and cocaine and did not really want to stop. While they were still in town I had a dream of my deceased brother. In my dream he was being pulled on a stretcher. He suddenly sat up and looked at me. Blood was pouring from his nose and he said, “My only advice to you is to get out of the drug world now.” When I woke up I decided it was time to get baptized and turn my life over to God. I told my parents and soon arrangements were made for me to be baptized by the same person who had baptized them. They were also getting ready to move back to Port Elizabeth. I drove to Pretoria with my parents and read another book that was in the car called “The Call” by Rick Joyner. Jesus was beginning to be more real to me.

Finally one of the most special days of my life arrived, the day I was to be baptized. As we neared the man’s house, I was overjoyed and overcome first by tears and then laughter. I just knew that my life was about to change. When I entered the house I sensed a Presence – a loving, holy presence.  The man explained to me that I was going to be purchased by the blood of Jesus and that God would be my Father and that I would belong to Him. I prayed to God and confessed all my sins to Him while the young man anointed me with oil and prayed for me. Thereafter he baptized me in the swimming pool in the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. When I came up from the water I felt as though I were a new person. I had such an indescribable peace within me. I was instantly set free from my smoking and drug addiction. I had a new hunger in my heart – a hunger to fellowship with other Christians and read the word of God.

A week later we had arrived back to our old home in Port Elizabeth that my father had built for us. I was so excited to attend a church. Where would I go? How would I get there? I had already told my boyfriend that I had been baptized and had accepted Jesus as my savior – I told him that I now only wanted to be friends with him. He decided to take me to a church that my mom had suggested (though they still did not attend church even though they had been baptized). That night as I walked into the church I again sensed the same Presence – I can only describe it as a holy, loving presence that was like the sunshine, but my heart was drinking in the warmth. The service began with praise and worship. I was amazed as the people sang, clapped and worshipped the Lord Jesus with such enthusiasm. I joined in, singing with all my heart to the Lord Jesus. Suddenly the most amazing thing began happening to me. An electrical current raced though my entire body, increasing in intensity and it felt as though Someone was holding both my hands tightly down at my sides. My whole body was shaking. My heart was bursting, and from deep within me I was communicating with God with groans that words cannot express. As the worship ended, I opened my eyes and was just bursting to tell someone what had happened to me. God restrained me until the service had ended. I was filled to the brim and overflowing with intense love, joy, peace, contentment. On the way home I couldn’t help but sing and praise God. Later I learned about the baptism of the Holy Spirit which is promised to all who will repent of their sins and receive Jesus. My young friend became upset as I told him what had happened to me during the service. He had been uncomfortable in the church as he had been raised in a conservative Dutch reformed church. However, that night when he got home, he told me that he went down on his knees alone in his room and repented of his sins. Three months later he was also baptized and was given the gift of speaking in tongues immediately aft After experiencing God so intimately I was a completely new person. I was so in love with Jesus and passionately on fire for God, witnessing to anyone who would listen and attending church as often as possible to learn God’s word and worship Him. My whole appearance changed, my eyes were bright and there was a smile on my face! I could look people in the eye, and no longer walked with eyes downcast, looking at the ground. I no longer dressed only in black or wore too revealing clothes. My desire for drugs, cigarettes and partying was completely gone. I decided to return to high school to finish my schooling. I was enrolled at a private school that would allow me to complete my final year, even though I had not completed grades 10 and 11. I worked hard and finished my schooling as the second top student – all to the glory of God. Through God I also started a prayer group at the school and another young boy accepted Jesus as his savior and experienced God in the same way I had. He is still serving God today in the field of medicine. My dream was to experience a Year of your Life programme done through a bible school after completing school, but it did not work out. Instead I was accepted into University to study to become a teacher. I desperately wanted to do good and make a difference in the world and serve God with all my heart.

After the first year of being a Christian I suddenly began to experience many trials and felt as though God was withdrawing His presence from me. My young friend said that the “honeymoon” was over. I was very saddened and began to seek God wholeheartedly. I learned scriptures such as the parable of the sower and was determined to not be as those who quickly receive God’s message with joy, but then fall away soon after when tribulation arises because of the word. I memorized encouraging scriptures about God never leaving, nor forsaking me and read the bible and prayed every day. I began to mature in my faith – though was by no means perfect. I had to daily confess my sins, cast down thoughts and discipline myself. I learned how gracious and compassionate God is, and also developed a healthy fear of God as the one who would judge my works. I once again began to feel secure in my position in Christ Jesus as the one who saves us.

I was baptized in November 1999, it is now August 2011 and I am still free of drugs and cigarettes. I am now married to my young friend who experienced salvation with me, and we have two beautiful daughters. I give God all the glory and praise for the wonderful work He has done in me, as well as for all the wonderful works He is doing throughout the earth.

I wrote a poem about the wonderful grace of God a number of years ago that I hope can encourage others, too .

Praise To The Glory Of His Grace

A righteousness of my own I cannot achieve

For in my sinful nature nothing good lives

Humbly I come to God to receive the righteousness which through Christ He gives.

My nakedness I cannot hide from God

Nor whiten my filthy ragged array

By grace He clothes me in a shining white robe

And washes all my sin and shame away.

This grace is given to a sinner like me

Not through any good deed of mine

The Son of God hung on a tree

As the ultimate sacrifice of all time.

The righteous God sits on His throne

And the resurrected Christ at His right hand now alive to Him

I am not my own as a new creation before Him I stand.

Now very soon, Yes it’s at the door

Jesus will return in great power and glory

The dead and alive in Christ will meet Him in the air

We will further be clothed with immortality.

A heavenly city God has prepared

Where righteousness, holiness and peace abound

This is where He will bring all His heirs who once were lost but now have been found.

Jesus did it!!!

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Testimony: It’s Okay, I’m Here

I met Him in the tiniest room there was in this small white church that I had never attended before until that weekend. As I closed my eyes to pray with faith for the first time, I didn’t feel like I was in that small room anymore. I was consumed and surrounded by God’s presence, amazing grace, forgiveness and unconditional love. I felt like I was talking to Him face to face; that I was before His throne in heaven. I felt protected and safe. I had never felt that unexplainable feeling before at that moment until then. I knew He was listening and I could feel the party that was going on in heaven as I accepted and made Jesus the Lord and Savior of my life! This happened for me at a purity weekend in late May of 2008. I walked out of those church doors that weekend with weights of burdens, worry, fear, and doubt lifted and I was changed from the inside out! But before this weekend ever happened life wasn’t so easy and I was in the search for healing, love, meaning — in search of something bigger. I was in search of God.

I never really grew up in a Christian home, even though my family always believed that there was a God but didn’t live for Him. I would jump back and forth, living with my mom and dad at times, and then my aunt and uncle up until I was nine. As I jumped from home to home, I began being sexually abused by more than one person and physically abused by my dad. At nine I went to live with my aunt and uncle permanently. My aunt taught me how to pray and I am so thankful for all my aunt and uncle have done and continue to do. But somehow I felt like it wasn’t enough and I got stubborn and rebellious at the age of thirteen and went back to live with my mom (by this time my mom and dad were split up and about to get divorced). I then began to question if there really was a God.

It wasn’t easy going back and living with my mom. She drank a lot and hardly was home. When I lived with her I really couldn’t call the many places we lived home. We lived in motel and hotel rooms and various other places that we kept getting kicked out of, and finally she has kept and is living in a trailer that they can call home now. But at the time I had to take care of my younger sister and brother and learned to do the basic stuff like cooking, cleaning, etc., on my own. I grew up poor. I had no running water growing up. My family and I would carry jugs of water back from the run off. We had no heat except the heat from the woodstove we owned. But this was the poorest I have ever been. Sometimes we hardly had any food and I saw my younger sister and brother beg for food. Furthermore, at this time in my life, I met my best friend. She had great faith in Jesus. You could tell she loved Him and her family and she lived for Him. She wouldn’t push her faith on me, but she would invite me to go to church – to church activities – and was excited and ready to answer the many questions I would ask about Christianity. My best friend and the horrifying experiences from my past drew me closer to Jesus and helped me to make Him my hero and king.

At purity weekend the messages about sexual purity, how special and unique my body is, and how much I am worth really brought out what was hiding deep inside of me for many years. I finally understood why with the sexual abuse, why I was created the way I was, and learned that my virginity that I had been struggling to save, and could have been forced to give away was not only special to me but to Jesus and my future husband. I didn’t feel like I was worth much due to the abuse I had experienced, and the way I had to live, but I learned that I was worth more than I felt because of Jesus’ sacrifice. A week before purity weekend I had had phone sex with a guy in my grade and as I sat there in that church listening to the women speaker, I felt a very deep guilt, the worst guilt I have ever felt before. I knew what I needed to do, so I ran to one of the girl leaders and confessed what I did and how I felt, I couldn’t hold back the tears… I was convicted as the Holy Spirit worked inside of me for the first time. She took me to a small room and helped me to confess what I did to Jesus, helped me to ask for His forgiveness and accept that He died for me, then defeated death itself and then we asked Him to help me live for Him and I thanked Jesus.

For about a month after I had said that prayer and made Jesus the Lord and Savior of my life, I was filled with the Holy Spirit and excitement. Nothing could take my new faith away and I liked the knowledge and feeling of having a savior. I was filled to the top with everything I needed. I felt completed. Despite all these great feelings, that didn’t change the home life I went back to, my old habits, my selfish ways, or how my family decided to live.

Jesus has taken me in, adopted me and cleaned me up, but is still always doing the work He does of cleaning me up, teaching me, putting me through trials, struggles and things to make me cling to Him and grow into someone like who Jesus was and is. It wasn’t easy and still isn’t easy giving up everything for Jesus and learning to obey Him and not ignore Him in every area of life. In the beginning of my faith I remember it being very hard for me to continue to build and grow this relationship with somebody I couldn’t see or hear with my physical eyes and ears. I learned then to have faith in the smallest of things and to trust God even when I doubted or wasn’t thinking clearly. I also was struggling to understand the grace and forgiveness of Jesus and dealing with a habitual sin. Then an amazing thing happened as I prayed about this struggle and sin… God gave me this vision – like a daydream sort of – and it helped me to understand what really happened at the cross.

This is what happened in my daydream: I find myself in the crowd watching Jesus carry His cross to the Crucifixion ground (Skull Hill). He is all bloody and pain is written on His face. He can hardly stand up. He looks at me and I want to go tell him, “I’m sorry,” but my feet won’t move. My mind then takes me to the foot of the cross. I’m there alone and I’m praying. I hear a deep, soothing, calm voice. I look up and am staring into Jesus’ fiery orange eyes. He says to me, “It’s OK, I’m here.” Then there is complete silence and I’m showered in protection. I fall into His mighty arms and am loved. That’s not the only things that God has showed me and taught me though.

For the past two years I have battled depression, suicidal thoughts, suicidal attempts, and cutting. I have become closer to Jesus, learned to trust Him with the little faith I did have, that grew and grew during these times of depression. He has set me free from the suicidal thoughts, wanting to commit suicide/need to give up completely and cutting. I thank Him every day for letting me survive those times that I was so close to death. I learned to turn to Him and use the weapons He has given me to fight many temptations like cutting. Likewise, throughout these three years that I have been a Christian, I have learned so much about who I was and am growing into being. I continue to learn more about Jesus and what He has done for me everyday too. I see progress most of the time in my attitude, behavior, and thoughts. I see change sometimes in myself because of the work of the Holy Spirit, and then other times I get stuck and need to figure out what is holding me back from moving forward. I am very thankful for the family of God that I do have and the support, guidance, advice and help they have shown me. I am learning, and growing into living everyday for my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ! I hope and pray that my lifestyle and daily habits honor glorify and make our God smile!

Jesus Did It!!!