A Life Changing Jail Service: Esmerada’s Story

HERE IS A TESTIMONY FROM SOMEONE WHO CAME TO THE LORD IN THE JAIL IN ONE OF OUR SERVICES. SHE LOVES TO SHARE IT SO PLEASE DO: I FIRST MET ESMERALDA IN ESTRELLA JAIL AT JAIL SERVICES WE CONDUCT. WHAT A CHANGE IN A PERSON! I PRAISE GOD THAT HE IS NEVER FINISHED WITH US AND SEES THE “JEWEL” HE HAS CREATED BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT IS HAPPENING WITH ESMERALDA BY THE “TOUCH OF THE MASTER’S HAND.” “I was once lost and blind and I refused the presence of God in my life. What I mean is the religious dogma of the Jehovah Witness religion. The view of God through religion was that he was just a commanding “freak” that turned His back on those who don’t believe in Jehovah. I always thought that Jesus was just a dead man; I refused God, His dead son, Jesus and everything to do with Him. I was so rebellious my whole life but looking back I see many times that God tried to reach out to me and to stop me from persecuting everyone that was obedient to God. I tore apart everyone who would try to show me that God is good and that Jesus is real and that they loved me. Growing up I was molested by one of my elementary school friend’s dad and as a result I became suicidal and suffered with bulimia. I was introduced to alcohol abuse due to the fact that my father was an alcoholic and could be very physically and mentally abusive, who also put a lot of stress on my mother. She had strong love in her but she was under all this stress due to the bad times we as a family endured. I left home and became independent at the age of 15 and turned into a “boracha” (alcoholic) – a regular “party animal” capable of lot’s of violence. At 16 I moved from NM to AZ but kept running back and forth to try to escape my problems. I worked as a CNA at 16 and just tried to be successful but it didn’t work out. One of my biggest problems was that I liked to party and to go clubbing using a fake ID, doing beer runs on a regular basis and this led to dealing drugs, doing drugs, and messing with counterfeit money to stealing cars (please forgive me if I car jacked yours). This all led to robberies and hanging out with gang members even though I never officially joined a gang (mainly because I wouldn’t let “homies” tell ME what to do!) I am ashamed to admit that I helped “homies” hold a hostage once – I was a driver for an escort service, in and out of jail constantly and even played with witchcraft. Through all of this, I was demonically tortured, I have been left for dead twice, raped with my baby in my arms and constantly involved in bad lustful relationships – at one point I think one could be referred to as “Lucifer’s brother” and as my robbery partner he shot my best friend, he put a bag over my head and suffocated me leaving me for dead and then came back to set my body on fire and so much more. I fell into another relationship who was involved in the Mexican cartels which I shot at him for leaving me for leaving me for dead and leaving my face like a complete monster. All I can say is that I am still alive today because of the mercy and grace of God. I once was lost but now I am found – it was God’s love through Jesus His son, my Redeemer that saved me when I was knocking at Hell’s door. Once I thought sin was fun but through my relationship with Jesus Christ (not religion) I have found “life and life more abundantly!” When I came to the realization that I was daily dying inside I bowed my knee, repented before the Lord for all I have done and asked Jesus to come into my heart. It says in Psalm 116:1, “I love the Lord, because He has heard my voice…” Yes, He heard my cry for mercy and forgave me. One of my favorite verses that has been a comfort for me is Isaiah 41:10 “Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.” This verse expresses what God has done for me and is continuing to do for me. God has blessed me with my husband, a true man of God, just what I asked for! My husband has adopted my three sons, Micklo, Ceazar, and Santi and with his and God’s help I am becoming the mother they need. God is day by day helping me to completely change my ways into the woman of God I want to be and a better citizen in my community. I attend Victory Outreach Phoenix with Pastor Toni and Sister Patsy and my church family stands with me and my family. I am in the process of opening my own little boutique store called Lala’s anointed Muneca’s (dolls) and also a website now is open for my product. http://lalasmunecasboutique.weebly.com and God is helping me do this because I was unable to get a job due to my felony. I want you to know that there is no need to be walking around hopeless and thinking its ok to be crazy. This isn’t normal behavior to be filled with guilt or to be suicidal. I had to live with guilt for taking a life (abortion). Yes, I have overcome an addiction to gambling and to alcohol and so can you no matter what your addiction may be! There is an almighty God, a forgiving God that loves us all so much and just wants to bless us and is just waiting for us to turn to him and ask him to forgive us of our sins. God and all of heaven rejoice every time someone repents and turns away from the lifestyle of sin. Yes, there was a party in heaven when I did it and there will be one for you when you give your heart to Jesus. God can and will heal any pain in your heart, any disease, any sickness and He can transform and heal anyone’s relationships. He can change hateful families to loving families. The Bible is so powerful, and I give all the glory to the Lord because I am supposed to be in prison or dead right now but instead I am out free – I thought my life was over but it is just beginning. At one time I was sitting in jail in the hole thinking of hanging myself as I thought my kids were better off without me and I was facing years in prison but then the Lord led me to the church services in Estrella Jail with Pastor Shari where she preached the Word of Jesus Christ and gave me so much hope and prayed for me, and helped me build my faith. She didn’t know this at the time but she saved my life and she never left my heart, then is when God started to do many miracles in my life. I went from a depraved woman to now being a woman of destiny and dignity and my life has purpose to it. I have found out that Jesus isn’t just a dead man but my living Lord and Savior. Don’t be stubborn today, Let Him love you and change your life forever. Esmeralda” (More of my favorite verses: Psalm 106:1; 1 John 1:9; Jeremiah 29:11; Ephesians 6:24; Hebrews 3: 7-8; Psalm 40:4; Romans 12:21; Matthew 7:7; 2 Thessalonians 2:13; john 16:23-24) AND PROVERBS 31:25, “SHE IS CLOTHED WITH STRENGTH AND DIGNITY…” Photo credit: Google

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