Consider the Scripture carefully. God desires to bless us even more than we desire to be blessed. But He also loves us enough not to bless us beyond our capacity to handle the bkesings properly and to continue giving Him glory.
Jealousy, envy, and complaining oneself with others is childish. It belongs entirely to the flesh and has nothing to do with spiritual things. But it’s one of the major causes of wilderness living.
Take account of your thoughts in this area. When you recognise wrong thought patterns beginning to flow into your mind, talk to yourself a little. Say to yourself, what good will it do me to be jealous of others? It won’t get me eased. God has an individual plan for each of us, and I am going to trust Him to do the best thing for me. It isn’t any of my business what He chooses to do for other people.
Don’t be afraid to be honest with God about your feelings. He knows bow you feel anyway, so you may as well talk to Him about it.
Set your mind to be happy for others and trust God with yourself. It will take some time and persiditence, but when that old mental stronghold has been turn down and replaced by the word of God, you will be on your way out of the wilderness and into the promised land.
God desires obedience and not sacrifice. Often we didn’t want to do what God asks, and then we attempt to do something to compensate for our disobedience.